I wish I were still a kid, innocent, and content with the small things. I wish I could just go back to the time when I still had my father who would take care of everything. I wish I could go back to being worry-free.
Adulting is great. But there are times where in we need support, because not all the time we can handle things well alone, but how do you deal with life when the support you need isn’t something easy for the people you need it from to give?
I wish things were a little different. I wish mom had a job back home that I’ll no longer have to worry about my younger brother’s school fees, so I can focus on myself, on improving it and achieving my goals which include them.
I wish there were a lot of opportunities in my province (Leyte) so I wouldn’t have to be away from home. I wish our place was not a 5 hour exhausting travel away on a ferry and on a bus, just so I won’t have to spend so much on the fare every time I go home. I wish I was getting paid more so I can have extra money for myself’s wants and needs.
I wish I could return back time and start over again from where my very first failure happened. I wish my wrong choices had been easy to fix. I wish I had been wiser. Perhaps my life and my family’s would have been better if I hadn’t failed myself and the people I love and had finished college.
I wish I wasn’t here my bed at the moment, thinking and writing about all these.